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Miss Lioness
06 January 2009 @ 03:22 pm
But I guess this year is special. It's taken me a while to realize the kind of guys I attract and put up with. And I realize it's my fault, I put up with it, I let it happen. So... no more broken guys for me to fix (fix your damn self) and I'm done waiting. I think that's my worst problem, I wait for guys to "be ready" *shakes head* if you're that into me you will be ready. *smacks forhead* How did it take me so long to realize this? I guess I just now realized how much of a good, attractive, smart, special person I am and how much wrong has been done to me in my life that I let happen. So I'm going to work on me and what I can control and let go of everything else. I'm ready to have a damn good time!
 
 
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Miss Lioness
12 December 2008 @ 05:51 pm
Man am I spoiled. My aunt's christmas gift to my family (my dad, sister, and I) was a trip to disneyworld. It had it's ups and downs, such is life, but definately fun! I also figured out "what I want to be when I grow up." My favorite park in disneyworld (their are four) is animal kingdom, which for those who know me should come as no suprise. I also talked to a lot of the people who work there and got to watch them perform surgery on an ostrich (which was soooo awesome). I decided I want to be a zoology major and hopefully someday either work at a zoo or be a conservationist or something to that affect. My sister also took tons of awesome pictures while we were there and decided she wants to be a photographer when she grows up. Neither one of those professions is one in which we will be making loads of money but I never wanted to make a load of money, I just wanted to find something that I love and make enough money to live off of doing it. It's nice to have direction again, I felt lost for a bit. I missed Lola like CRAZY while I was in Disneyworld, the longest I had ever been away from her before the trip was two days. A week without my baby is far too long! I will never being going that long again without her.
And for those wondering yes I realize I'm 25 and "grown up" but it's never too late to chase your dreams. best wishes to all, have a wonderful Christmas!
 
 
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Miss Lioness
26 November 2008 @ 02:00 pm
hmmmmm what to share?? Well I finally got my tattoo and I freakin LOVE it! Below is the pic, the wings are purple with pink highlight and the wording is "Rise And Overcome" I know BIG shocker there. I ended up not covering any of my scars from my surgery, the tattoo is placed right below, I just didn't want that part of my life covered so you can actually see the smallest of my scars right above the tattoo in this pic. The tattoo is on the back of my right hip. Sometimes I even forget I have it but when I see it I fall in love with it everytime. So very "me" and unique! I guess that's about all I feel like sharing right now. Hope everybody is doing well!!


 
 
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Miss Lioness
14 June 2008 @ 11:17 pm
I've already decided I'm going back to school. I'm looking at what I need to do to finally finish college. I'm glad to realize I'm doing this for me. Verizon will actually give me up to $4,000 a year in tuition money. I have a lot of money saved but this will GREATLY help and is something I look forward to taking advantage of.

I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago and it got me thinking. I'm through wasting my time and their time if I know in my heart they aren't the one, no butterflies in the stomach. I'll be 25 years old this month and I am finally on my way to becoming the woman I want to be. With that comes the thought that maybe I won't find that butterflies in the stomach kind of love again, and maybe that's ok. I guess it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I learned so much about myself in those times and also learned what I wanted in a man, and what I didn't want. If I don't find it again, if that dream of getting married and having kids doesn't work the way I hoped it would, then I need to come up with a plan B.

I've been thinking on and off about adopting. There are a lot of asian people in San Jose and every time I see a little asian baby girl I feel like I've never seen anything more adorable in my life. If plan A doesn't work out then I want to adopt. I want to go back to school for me, so that when and if I do decide to adopt I can provide a stable loving home for that child. Just thinking about a plan B kind of has me excited. Just knowing that my life doesn't depend on somebody else, that I can be happy living my life the way I want to, makes me feel free. It's funny how things don't work out and how sometimes they do. :)
 
 
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Miss Lioness
01 April 2008 @ 10:17 pm
I never cease to amaze myself. I had an allergic reaction to some face cream and managed to burn my face off, or at least that's what it felt like lol and itchy. It's still burny and itchy and red three days later, but in a couple more days I'll be fine again (yay!). I've had a lot of time to relax and play mario party on the wii, sooooo fun! And I've also done some cleaning, which technically I really shouldn't be doing (I'm not supposed to do a lot of bending and moving just yet) but I can't stand not doing it if it's needed. So cleaning got done yay. I gave my baby a bath and now she's all clean and smells good. I thought I'd share a picture of her grumpy face below. :) I also finished a good book and started on another. Soon enough here I will be well enough to get out of the house, can't freakin wait!! I'm way too social and active to be stuck here not very mobile, very excited that soon it will be different. In the meantime I learned that I will be getting checks from the state of CA during my part time disability, which will really help financially and take a lot of stress off of me. AND I won a phone at work!! It was a couple days ago, of course I wasn't even there. God(dess) is surely blessing me lately. I hope everyone out there is doing well, best wishes.

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Miss Lioness
27 March 2008 @ 12:01 pm
I went back to the hospital. After a few days of being home, one night I got a horribly sick feeling in my stomach and a bad headache, I went to bed early hoping it would just go away but alas it just got worse and worse, it got to the point that I couldn't even hold down water and the headache didn't let up at all. Around 4am I had to wake up my Dad and have him take me to the ER. Turns out I had a pretty bad infection from the surgery so they immediatly put me on antibiotics, some medicine for nausia and pain killers and I got to spend two more glorious days in the hospital. Although this was a different kaiser hospital and I got my own room so it was certainly nicer than before. I am however very happy to be home once again! Hopefully this time to stay. Other than that I guess there's not really much, I will be spending my next few days on oral antibiotics and lounging around the house and with any luck doing absolutely nothing but getting better. Hope everybody else is doing well! Much love and best wishes.
 
 
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Miss Lioness
24 March 2008 @ 06:25 pm
of people asking me if I starved myself to lose the weight. Furthermore I'm sick of people asking my why I continue to starve myself. I DON'T STARVE myself! Yes I eat less than I used to, umm duh I was overeating that's why I was overweight. I eat much healthier now and I eat a lot less because I stop eating when I'm full and I don't eat unless I'm hungry. Get over it!
 
 
Miss Lioness
22 March 2008 @ 10:53 pm
After an agonizing five days in the hospital I'm back home and couldn't be happier! I missed my dog even more than I thought, I cried when I finally got home and saw her, yes I'm a sap and she licked my face all over. :)

The surgery went well. I got an epidural before hand and I have a new respect for women who get them before childbirth, I nearly puked. It's certainly not the most fun thing in the world. I woke up from the anastesia in tears from the pain, apparently they didn't plan it quite right and I didn't get pain medication through the epidural until 45 minutes AFTER I woke up. I barely remember it, I just remember being in tears but not being able to cry because it hurt so bad, don't remember much of the first night either thanks to the drugs. A few of the nurses SUCKED but thankfully more of them were wonderful. I wasn't able to even roll over for two days, it took four days for me to be able to get out of bed and walk, that was awful. Only being able to sit there and watch tv is not how I ever want to be again, I tried reading but just kept falling asleep with the book in my hand, again thanks to the drugs. It was horrible not being able to even get up to go to the bathroom (catheters SUCK and I hope never to have to need one again) or to even bathe myself. Katie, bless her heart, washed my hair and braided it once she got back from Disneyland. I got a cute fuzzy bunny while I was there thanks to my friend Sean, who surprised me with a visit. I have a tube coming out of my back attached to a bag which I will have to carry around with me for four to six weeks, I knew that was going to be the case but it's not really easy to hide a bag full of urine lol, I have a great cockblock for the time being. I'm still in a bit of pain, well duh I will be for a while but the vicodin helps, pretty much by making me sleepy and therefor making me get plenty of rest.

I'm so happy this is over with and I can hopefully live better in the future. For those who want to see the wound I've attached a picture, but I don't recommend it for people who get queasy about that kind of stuff. The staples are still in, I should be getting them removed Monday or Tuesday and then I will post another picture of the current scar. It wasn't the most enjoyable experience but I certainly didn't expect it to be. I'm proud of myself for getting through it all and moving forward. Hope all is well with everybody. Lola and I are very happy now!

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Miss Lioness
16 March 2008 @ 10:51 pm
I know this might sound silly... Heading into my surgery tomorrow I'm a tad bit scared, but I've barely thought of it. The thing that has occupied my mind the most about it all is the fact that I'll be without my dog for four days. As much as being in the hospital that long makes me cringe, I'm more concerned about not having my Lola with me. I can't explain the bond she and I have, it's like we were meant to be together. I know it sounds silly but I fell in love with her the moment I saw her picture online. She came to me at a time where I felt so lost. I "woke up" when she came into my life. She inspires me to do so much, and she's just a dog!! But she's so much more than that to me. I can't thank God(dess) enough for bringing the two of us together. She's become family to me, I can't imagine life without her. It's amazing... the bonds we can share with animals. Some people might say "pft.. she's just a dog" and I say "it's too bad you don't have the capacity to love like I can, or be loved like I am." She makes me incandescently happy.
 
 
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Miss Lioness
15 March 2008 @ 12:16 am
I posted this elsewhere but I felt the need to do so here as well.

You can search for the video by typing "marine puppy killer" or something of that sort, not hard to find. Watch the video, and if you have a soul you will be as sick as I am. The saddest part is that whenever people think of US soldiers in Iraq this sick guy is who they are going to think of.... now they won't think of the many respectable soldiers that are adopting animals while they're there, not the many honorable ones that raise money to buy the children over there soccer balls to play with, not the ones who leave their families behind in hopes that their efforts are not in vain, the ones that just want to do good in the world. Thank you very much Asshole for disgracing them and my country.

Now I understand that times are hard there (to put it lightly) but that is NO excuse, I mean at the very least be a man and shoot the poor thing in the head if you want to put it out of it's misery. You're seriously sick if you're going to throw it off a cliff, laugh about it and VIDEO TAPE IT!! Not to mention stupid. I'm also irritated that this story broke on the fourth or fifth of this month and the military said they would "investigate." ummmm where are their findings?? I haven't seen an update to this story.... *shakes head* this entire "war" is just a never ending nightmare.....

Now before people go all crazy on me I'm even more outraged about the people that are dieing over there, both soldiers and the people living there. Yes I'm upset about a puppy, because it's WRONG, though as concerned as I am about animal cruelty I'm more concerned about how this one dickhead makes all the US soldiers look bad....
 
 
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